It’s Tuesday morning, and time for another round of Build ‘Em Up with Kelly, Erin and Courtney. This week we’re talking about remembering you and taking care of yourself and keeping your identity. When things get busy and life gets overwhelming how do you make time for yourself?
Your life will never be the same.
Yes, I know. I heard that phrase over and over during my pregnancy. In fact, it was thrown my way so many times that when I would hear that phrase, I would mentally check-out. In my head, I was preparing a to-do list and nodding my head politely, while the person talking took on the speaking voice of Charlie Brown’s teacher. It was always some variation of the classic pep-talk people love to give expecting moms. I use the term pep-talk loosely because my morale was never actually raised in the process.
Looking back, you know what I wish someone would have done differently? I wish someone would have looked me straight in the eye and said something like this:
The nights are going to be long, the tears plenty. That first phase will be scary and full of uncertainty, but it won’t last. You’ll find yourself again, you’ll smile more smiles than you ever imagined, you’ll love deeper than you’ve ever known. Sure things will be different, but the world isn’t ending honey, your season is just changing.
I’ll be sure and tell that to myself next time, actually. Those first few weeks and even months were scary and unexpected. I truly felt like I had left me behind when I became a mother, and I would never be able to fit into her clothes again. And maybe I believed that. I was immersed in this role, and so caught up that it began to completely define me. The problem with motherhood being all consuming is that it becomes easy to let our other roles fade into the background a bit, it becomes even easier to let ourselves fade into the background.
When we forget about ourselves, we forget about the little things that make us happy. Because when we think about the things that made us happy before being a mother, we think about things that we didn’t do with our children. Where is the middle ground? That’s tough, because there is no model of perfection, no perfectly balanced scale that you can use to base your decisions. I want to share with you, a few things that helped me find myself and evolve as a mother, yet keep my identity in tact.
- Find something that is yours. I mean, really yours. Some people have a love for running or yoga, maybe baking or playing tennis. For me, I love to write and share on this space. It’s mine and I don’t consult with others on it or answer to anyone about it. I don’t have specific time lines (unless I accept them) or restraints on my writing. It’s a great space to come and share what’s on my heart, or what I’ve been working on in the house, or a party that I planned. All things that I love and sharing them becomes an added bonus. Here’s the catch, take it seriously. I’m not talking about blogging specifically, I’m talking about whatever it is that you do for yourself. Negotiate times and don’t put yourself last every day.
- Take care of yourself and take time for you. Sure, I can’t do all of the things I did before I had a child and give time to everything else that is deserving. The dynamics have shifted, my season has changed. At the same time, I can’t completely let myself go either. You know what they say about when mama ain’t happy. I have things that are non-negotiable like getting my hair done (I just schedule it in advance) and the occasional pedicure. Taking time for myself was instrumental. Whether you stay up late at night or prefer early mornings, take some time for yourself. It can be mindless reality television or online shopping, baking a technical dessert or reading a book. Anything that allows you to check out of caring for everyone else’s needs and listen to your own.
- Give up the guilt. I still struggle with this some days, I’m not even sure where it comes from most of the time. I always feel better in the end and that’s always better for everyone else. We put immense pressure on ourselves as mothers and use other peoples words to project guilt onto ourself. Everyone has different needs and parents differently, listen to your heart and decide what’s good for your family. You have a friend who never takes a girls night? It doesn’t make you a bad mother because you do anymore than it makes her a bad mother because she does. Our needs are different, our seasons are different, our hearts are different. I had to step back and really assess the source of my guilt. Was I doing anything to feel guilty about? No? Then I was probably letting my emotions get the best of me.
Sometimes it’s impossible to keep everyone else happy, but you can keep yourself happy and that will impact the happiness of everyone around you. Don’t forget about you.
Lynsey says
Giving up the guilt is something I continue to struggle with. I always feel guilty if the kids are awake and I am taking time for myself after Brian gets home. It’s always a work in progress!
Andie says
The guilt part is the hardest!!! Gosh, is it ever. You pretty much wrote in this post, everything that I was thinking… and much more eloquently than I did! LOL
Meagan (Musing) says
Why do moms have so much guilt?? I really struggled with it at first and I’ve prayed so much about it. I need to let it go, and most of the time I do now. It’s so true…if I’m not happy the rest of the family suffers and that’s no fun for anyone! Thanks for sharing – I’m loving this series and reading so many encouraging stories. ๐
Kristin F. says
Good stuff, Jen. The guilt is definitely the hardest part. You have to take care of yourself before you can take care of anyone else and it only makes us better parents when we realize that! You have to find something that you love and turn off all of the voices inside your head that say you don’t have time for that. When we’re honoring God with our lives, keeping everyone in our household happy and doing things that we find rewarding, we can ignore everyone else’s opinions and find ourselves in a pretty happy place.
Whitney says
Your words resonated with me; each bullet point feels spot on. It’s so nice to know other moms go through (and are willing to share) their struggles and triumphs. Thanks for sharing, Jennifer!
Natashajk says
Like others have commented, giving up the guilt is the hardest part. Thanks for reminding all of us that it’s a necessary thing to do.
courtney defeo says
i love “find something that is yours” – it’s easy to compare to each other. and we are all so different. my friend loves spin classes and i can think of nothing worse! finding something you love can make a huge difference. i am a new fan of that ballet bar class. you are awesome jen!
Sarah says
I love what you said about the season changing! NO KIDDING! I also agree with finding something that’s yours. It’s just nice knowing that you have something that you can have alone! ๐
Anna says
I love this post! I really struggle with the guilt! I’m trying to do better, but it just stays there and wears me out. And I think for me, I didn’t have that time with just Kevin and me after we got married to just be us and the pregnancy time to get ready for motherhood and receive all of that well-meaning advice (ha ha! – I get the “it’ll be different when they’re your ‘own'” unsolicited advice now which really makes me cringe.) . I wouldn’t trade it for the world, but I think going from being a single girl to being a wife and mother has given me a little more to “adjust” to which is probably why I feel bad doing things for myself because I just love my little family and hate spending time away from them. Sure, I was very involved in the boys daily lives before Kevin and I got married, but I would go home after we got them to bed and I had me time. Now, home is with my husband and kids. My reality, which I’m so blessed to have, is now getting ready before the kids get up, making breakfast and taking care of my family, sitting in carline, working and squeezing in a run each day, and nights filled with family time, fun activities, homework, bath time and bedtime stories. Trying to balance it all while making sure my husband and I have grown up time, we have lots of family time and we each get some chill time is something I’m trying to learn. I don’t think I’ll ever get it figured out, but I’m glad I have people like you who write beautiful things that encourage me. ๐
Jen says
good ideas! Still trying to find ‘my thing.’ The hobby that will will leave me refreshed and refocused, and not take up too much time. : )
Kate says
I got the “end of the world” pep talk a lot, too. It’s much kinder to tell someone that yes things are different, but that doesn’t mean they’re worse!